ones i love

a few older pics that never left the computer but i love she was between 2-4 months here

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth rambles and sometimes leaves pictures....

He's totally been faithful,as usual. Our trials will purify our faith. Experiencing Him through trouble, fear,turmoil ,joy love,peace,learning to know HIm. I know He wants me to trust Him and i want to trust HIm like I feel like I used to. But more... obviousely there was work that needed to be done. He gave me a fresh start .restored hope where it was dampered.He set my sights back on track. He touched my heart and brought courage and faith and a new desire or strength to endure. I didn't feel like I could endure what ever is to come . He opened my eyes and placed my faith where it needed to be. In Him. His ability to complete the good and perfect work which He started. He has called on me from before time I did not stumble into Him, and He was then forced to take me on as daughter and be stuck with me because I found out His secret! He chose me ordained me as His rescued me from myself saved me from life with out knowing true love and peace end an eternity severed from Him . The one who is love. This Christmas I appreciate the giving of His eternal,enduring,passsionate,Love sick heart. His birth ,sacrifice,beauty. I celebrate life with my Lord this Christmas.Such a beautiful child I can imagine.... Merry Christmas! Peace to you& your house! I pray that you would abide anew in His love as if it were the very first day everry day! Let His love blow upon your heart and stir desire for his beauty and presence that overwhelms and leaves a void that no words can fill only a life of worship of adoration! I love you guys! !!!!!! !!!!!! Jesus your Da best Da best in the whole wuuuuurrlld!

open and broken

yeah ok boldness, so in the midst of all that has been going on in our lives and around us,there has been this place of fear and sadness and disappointment. i've been really brokenhearted. there is a heavieness that God brings me up for the air and life that i need to keep me going thinking that it is over and then i somehow have slipped back into it . i have for as long as i remember battled fear with people God has done miracles and made such improvement but its like an oceans tide ya know comes and goes with the turning but its always there always in sight and when i turn my back i still hear it . i hate to put such a negative on something so beautiful ... but thats what i have i feel drained life and weak in all aspects i feel like i need to be strong because its required of me i'm mom , wife, pastors wife, friend daughter, sister........

im struggling with the severity and the kindness of God being able to trust him in that, i go to read the word and my heart is filled with fear confusion,anxiety hurt things that never used to be there...

but yet as i write this a song is being played on the piano simple little sound like a jewelry box and something washed over my heart.

He did.

HE sweeeps me up into his arms embraces me secures me

i dont know what is gooing on with me. it's purpose it's source.it's duration. trust is the very thing i have to do even when i feel i cant . but yet i reach out to his outstretched hand.

yearning for its end awaiting eternitys escape sort've..............

SURPRISE!!!!

Well Adam and I had decided a while ago that we have given up our rights to call a baby quits. God opens the womb and he shuts the womb. And well ladies and gentleman he has once again opened the womb and has added a fourth member to our family! We are having another baby! I do not know how far i am along but the beginning of next week i should be able to find out! i am guessing between 4-6 weeks! We are excited and surprised i did not think that it would be happening this soon but welcome our baby as much as if i had! Adam thinks it will be a boy im guessing probably but who knows.i am excited for eden she loves babies! shes sitting with me now smiley as usual!this pregnancy is way different from eden! i was so sick and this one i 'm sick once and a while through out the day but very tired very very tired. this is an awesome christmas gift early!today we went to the doctors and things are so different here, i had to come in and take a test first before i even see a doctor and then when they confirm what i already knew, then schedule an appointment the one who was recommended for me who is said to take the most natural path of things is a male and i dont know if i feel comfortable with that but there is a mid wife and i decided to initiate things with her so we will see. kinda scarey but God will lead i know he will so ......welcome little buggy #4!