Day 3 of camp!

So here we are at camp and day three. Things have been good but not extravagant. I want big!!!!!!!!!! we need big. These kids are totally different than LAST YEAR! there are a few the same but not mNY. physically i am so wiped. my body is hurting and tired. but adam is amazing and hanging out with eden and helping me out majorly. i want so much of a breakthrough here with these kids and want them to recieve so much! i have about 15 kids in a group for visual arts in worship every day we do 2 slots with them at 2 hours to 2 1/2 hours each so we get alot of time with them and good things have been coming but i want a breakthrough i know there is so much more for them. many of us woke up feeling like something awesome was going to happen today. anticipation is good! well i gotta go and get some pictures to post for here. i love you guys hang in there.

Don't forget to look below!PICTURES!!!!!!!!!!!

So it has been a few month's since i've posted . I have been checking others but that's all the time I had to do. Lot's had happened.... We just had an offer excepted on a house... Eden has turned 1 year old... A new season has come for me...in my heart, in this romance with my Lord...Adam amazes me as well as my daughter,how much love they bring into my heart ya know. Our SON is soon to be ascending from the depths of womb to the depths of our embracing arms! Yes I said son! Adam and I saw on the ultrasound that it was obviouse but didnt want the lady to tell us,but i connected with him like he was a boy to the point of needing to find out because it was so strong ,so we did! yup a son! I am so excited. And tired... Yesterday we went back to Decorah to talk to Emily about her upcoming marriage ceremony (Adams officiating his first wedding) and for Laura MacNamera'a good bye party. Very sad.I love you Laura! We've been missin you for a while but all the more now... but i am really excited for her new path.Good times ;) today I danced before the Lord ...it's been so long, i stopped when it felt like it fell into a routine of what I do sunday mornings you know, so I stopped and pressed in for a while, my heart yearned and was awakened this week, and it was what I had to offer him, to declare His beauty and my love for Him, He made my heart dance for Him and it manifested in the natural .
well i will post soon again but battery is going so i gotta go i love you all !

Been a long time coming ay'

There is PEACE...

I will find my peace in Him. I will endure glares and misunderstandings , judgements all that will come,while I stand and declare who He is and His faithfulness in situations. By His grace and in His embrace alonenwill I find the strength to do as my heart declares.His mercy will prevail on our behalf for we are His beloved.I do not have the strength to hold up the buildings I see falling around me, but I will dance through the firey walls,in His embrace.... I will declare His Glory,His goodness,His faithfulness, His endurance. I will dance in His arms as He transforms my heart ,infuses it as one with His. We will be One. My Bridegroom is fierce in His passion for me, in His Love.... He will not surrender my heart to all that would try to seduce me into it'[s lieing grips. He will have His desire and He will have me. From this place I pray to approach thos walls of fire, the crumbling structures we've sought shelter and found comfort in , I will hold onto Him as I errupt to the beating of His heart so strong, till that is all I hear, from every mouth from every glance, from all that I see will flow the rhythem of my Bridegrooms heart. Let this be my battle cry,the danceing of my feet, the sound of two becoming one.......
I will be the one He has created me to be.
I will not shrink and cringe at the unkowing thinkers who will misinterpet my dance,who will laugh as my body contorts to the one rhythem,not matching theirs.
my sight will be fixed on the eyes of Love.
I will surrender to His lead.
I am yours Lord.
Give me grace. I love you.
and you.....

Entering into the community in 5..4...3...2...

Ok, so on wednesday i get to start my first art class through a community program in Austin and I am really excited to be in other peoples lives haha ! God gave me passion for art and creating so what better oppurtunity to be around unbelievers, to be a light and just Love these people! I have no idea what to expect it is a beginners portrait and figure class and I'm writing in a different font now?????/ ok we'll go with it, time is limited, so i'm reallt hoping it's not going to involve nudity :0 yikes akward! i appreciate the beauty of God's creation but ummmmm ........... yikes !
It will be hard being away from Eden for 2 hours, but she will be with her papa and it will be good for them and me! Not that I want to be away from Eden, but it will be good for some things to be activated in me that have been dormant for a whileQ! By the way my beautiful daughter is in the crawling position taking little hops forward and rocking back and forthe! Christmas was awesome in Caledonia , with my Dad , and in Cleveland! three continual days of Christmas was alot but with loved ones whos counting?! God has really been bringing alot of healing in my family, very refreshing to my soul! So a month of art classes ,growing with my knew baby inside, my baby outside, growing wiht my family,entering into contact with human life forms outside of my house and the church all of this is forecasting goodness with expected up and downs but with His faithfulness, love and grace... I'm good ..... cuz he's good..... ;) love ya 's

Look BelowPictures......

This was something that i write after the recent season of despair lol ,and I wrote it to glorify God, because of His faithfulness! After what I wrote before it was important for me toshare this to declare His goodness! LOvE YoU ! Happy New Year!

ones i love

a few older pics that never left the computer but i love she was between 2-4 months here

Out of the abundance of the heart the mouth rambles and sometimes leaves pictures....

He's totally been faithful,as usual. Our trials will purify our faith. Experiencing Him through trouble, fear,turmoil ,joy love,peace,learning to know HIm. I know He wants me to trust Him and i want to trust HIm like I feel like I used to. But more... obviousely there was work that needed to be done. He gave me a fresh start .restored hope where it was dampered.He set my sights back on track. He touched my heart and brought courage and faith and a new desire or strength to endure. I didn't feel like I could endure what ever is to come . He opened my eyes and placed my faith where it needed to be. In Him. His ability to complete the good and perfect work which He started. He has called on me from before time I did not stumble into Him, and He was then forced to take me on as daughter and be stuck with me because I found out His secret! He chose me ordained me as His rescued me from myself saved me from life with out knowing true love and peace end an eternity severed from Him . The one who is love. This Christmas I appreciate the giving of His eternal,enduring,passsionate,Love sick heart. His birth ,sacrifice,beauty. I celebrate life with my Lord this Christmas.Such a beautiful child I can imagine.... Merry Christmas! Peace to you& your house! I pray that you would abide anew in His love as if it were the very first day everry day! Let His love blow upon your heart and stir desire for his beauty and presence that overwhelms and leaves a void that no words can fill only a life of worship of adoration! I love you guys! !!!!!! !!!!!! Jesus your Da best Da best in the whole wuuuuurrlld!

open and broken

yeah ok boldness, so in the midst of all that has been going on in our lives and around us,there has been this place of fear and sadness and disappointment. i've been really brokenhearted. there is a heavieness that God brings me up for the air and life that i need to keep me going thinking that it is over and then i somehow have slipped back into it . i have for as long as i remember battled fear with people God has done miracles and made such improvement but its like an oceans tide ya know comes and goes with the turning but its always there always in sight and when i turn my back i still hear it . i hate to put such a negative on something so beautiful ... but thats what i have i feel drained life and weak in all aspects i feel like i need to be strong because its required of me i'm mom , wife, pastors wife, friend daughter, sister........

im struggling with the severity and the kindness of God being able to trust him in that, i go to read the word and my heart is filled with fear confusion,anxiety hurt things that never used to be there...

but yet as i write this a song is being played on the piano simple little sound like a jewelry box and something washed over my heart.

He did.

HE sweeeps me up into his arms embraces me secures me

i dont know what is gooing on with me. it's purpose it's source.it's duration. trust is the very thing i have to do even when i feel i cant . but yet i reach out to his outstretched hand.

yearning for its end awaiting eternitys escape sort've..............